Me,Myself and I

Right, todays blog is going to be all about me. I am going to write about my life so far, so people know more about me. Also i tend to keep things bottled up and there are lots of things i have kept bottled up for some time now and i feel like i need to express it some how, so here goes:

My full name is Jade Melissa Smith and i was born on the 3rd of August 1992 at Arrowe Park hospital at 6.55am weighing only 7 pounds. I lived with my mum and dad in Tranmere till the age of 4, we then moved to Bebington in July 1996. I started primary school in September 1996 aged 5, i was one of the youngest in my class as i had just turned 5 the month before. I loved primary school, i had a good circle of friends even though i was very shy, once people talked to me and i got to know them, i was fine and become very loud lol.

I went through primary school, not being very clever but not being totally thick. Only in maths, numbers and me did not mix and we still dont know. Its just goes through one ear and out the other. I was in the lowest set in maths, me and three other children use to go out the class room when we had a maths lesson and did different work to all the other children as it was too diffcult for us to do. So if the other children was learning long division, we would go out the classroom and learn how to count on a number line. Primary school came to a end in July 2003 and thats when i went to secondary school called Prenton High School for Girls.

Again i was very shy and took a while to make friends and then when i did eventually make some friends, i only hung around with them for about half a year and then when i was 13, me,my mum and dad moved to Austrailia Perth because of my dads job. We went October 2006 and came back October 2007, i started school in the Feb 2007 over there, the school was called St.Stephens. I went to that school for 7 months and it was seven months from hell. I basically got bullied for the whole seven months, i didnt have no friends and the people who i thought were my friends were the ones that use to hit me, spit at me, push me about, call me names, throw things at me. And because i was so quiet, i didnt tell anyone. Not even my mum and dad as they loved being in Aussie so i didnt want to spoil it.

I had to think of a way to release all this tension and upset out of me, thats why i started self harming myself. I remember the first time i did this, my mum n dad was out so i went into the bathroom and seen the razor just sitting on edge of bath so i picked it up and slit both my wrists. The blood went everywhere but i just cryed as i felt so much better. I would hide the marks using makeup and cover all the bruises aswell from punching walls. After seven months of hell, the job wasnt working out for my dad so we came back home and i settled back into secondary school and finished my last two years of school and got ok gcses.

I then went on to do a childcare college diploma in because in year 10, i did work experience in my aunties nursery and really enjoyed it. Again took me a while to make friends but once i did, i had a laugh over the next two years and eventually passed my dipolma. I then went into my first job which was supply work in a nursery were i done some of my training. I did supply from May 10 to Jan 11, i then got taken on full time which was amazing as i loved it, was my ideal job. I worked here from Jan 11 till June 11, then stuff happened which i aint going into because it still fustrates me now, I then had no job until September 11 were i started in a new nursery.

May 11 was when i made a new set of friends, i started Bodyfit Bootcamp. I was doing Weight Watchers at the time and got told about it through that. So here we are: January 12 and i am still doing bootcamp and made a load of friends who i class as my family as they all treat me with respect, they dont moan at me for being too quiet or too loud, dont skit at me for wearing glasses or my accent. I am in a job which i am earning money doing.

Last little paragraph now, I got my first proper boyfriend at the age of 15 who i was with for 2 years. He is a family friend and we went together as friends to my prom and a few months later we become a couple. The first year was amazing but the second year just went downhill. He got all processive and protective of me, wouldnt let me go out with friends, he always rung me to see were i was, what i was doing etc. Then one time, i was at his house in his room as i was staying at his house because his mum and dad had gone away for the weekend and my mum and dad were away with them. He locked his bedroom door and wouldnt let me out, i was basically locked in his room for three days and two nights with hardly any food or water, i know that sounds stupid but thats what happened, i thought to myself, i need to get out of this relationship. But after two months of trying, it didnt work. Eventually i told my mum and i was so glad to get out of it. My confidence took a big knock then and still to this day, 2 years later i am still not confident around boys as i am scared they will all be the same.


Anyways sorry to bore you all, thats my eventful life

x

Is It The Weekend Yet??

No blog for two days, sorry guys but i have forgotten lol.. What have i done, let me think:

Saturday: I went to visit my nan, is it me or do all old people feel the cold more, as soon as i walked into her house, my nan had the heating on full blast and the fire one.. i was bloody roasting, felt like i had just walked into a steam room. bless her, she must of been soo cold to have both heating and fire on.

Then i had my PT session with Lizzie, it was such a hard workout, lots of different exercises, minimal rest and by the end of it, i cant physically speak. Just the way i like it! I then met a friend from bootcamp Kerry and her friend Nikki, was a last min thing to meet them and glad i did, after the week i had in work, i needed a good drink and boogie. But what gets me is why the hell do lads need to put their hands down their pants to touch their private parts. Its minging and soo unhygienic!!!

Sunday: Meet my friend Ashley for some food and then went the pictures. We needed a catchup and was talking about old times which we dont have much of now because i am soo busy with work. Seen The Sitter at the pictures, if anyone is going the pictures, i would recommand that film. Its soo funny, such a good comedy, Jonah Hill is a good actor too :)

Inspiring Picture Time:

   

Random Dos and Donts From the Weekend:
1. DO decide to go out last minute if you get invited as it will turn out to be a good nightout.
2. DONT bite your tongue, it hurts.
3. DO try a pink lady fish bowl, its very nice :)
4. DONT forget plasters if you have blisters when you go out.

Biting! Why Do People Do It

Well friday, i am so glad to see you. these last two days have been bloody horrible and i just wished i worked somewhere i really enjoy going to and somewhere i look forward to going to work. If you read my blog yesterday, you will see how i got treated by some children. well today, it was ok and i thought to myself, today is actually going ok.. but i opened my big mouth too soon and a child bite me!! I do not know what is going on in kids minds these days but when i eventually have kids, i do not want them turning out like that otherwise i would feel like a bad mother and that i cant keep my child under control. Also my child will get told off when it should and be told right from wrong which i think, is what these children are lacking i think!!!

Inspiring quotes of the day: (pictures again)




Random Dos and Donts of the Day:
1. DO use your car headlights as lights every now and again, as they are very useful.
2. DONT punch a wall, it hurts!

Childrens Manners (Where Have They Gone!)

Well Today has been bloody terrible, i dont know why i work with children, thats what i was telling myself today. Why do i work with children?? Why cant i have the perfect job?? Why cant i just be respected?? The kids of today are bloody terrible, today i have been spat at, been told to fuck off, been punched and screamed at and been kicked! I felt like crying today and just wanted to walk out of work and not return, tomorrow is going to be even worst aswell!!! Thank god its friday, it will drag aswell no doubt, friday always does.

I havnt got any inspiring quotes today as i havnt been in inspiring mood so i just found some off random site:
i am going to post quite a few, might pick my mood up a little bit..




Random Dos and Donts of the Day:
1. DO look whats above you before you stand up, esp when you have overhead projector above you, you will bang your head.
2. DONT work with children who have no manners, you just get it throwen back in your face (just avoid it if you can)

Why Does Wee Stink??

Hi Everyone, i am shattered tonight, it has been a very long and busy day.. only sat down for 45 minutes for my lunch. I felt really proud of myself today, i went the shop to get myself a drink of water as i forgot mine, my mate in work gave me some money to get her some crisps and chocolate.

I was soo tempted to get some but i didnt give into temptation, so i grabbed her some space invaders, a chomp and some starburst and then i got my bottle of water, payed for them all and walked straight out smiling to myself that i didnt give in. When i was eating healthy at 17 and going the gym, i would just pig out on junk food, it wouldnt bother me, i would just think `oh i will go the gym and burn it off`.

Inspiring Pictures of the day:

 
 

Random Dos and Donts of the Day:
1. DONT let a child wee on you, a.you stink for the rest of the day and b. you get a wet patch in a place you shouldnt get a wet patch.
2. DO watch were you are walking as you may bump into a table and get a big bruise on your leg.

Positivity

Helloo Everyone.... I am in a positive mood for some strange reason today, everything is gone soo smoothly which hardly every happens to me, only once in a blue moon.

Bloody hard workout tonight at bootcamp, the theme was Bring On The Wall.. I am going to be sore tomorrow esp my knees from doing lots of wall squats.. We did lots of different exericses tonight such as:

Burpees, Mountian Climbers, Sprints, Push Ups, Side Steps, Planks and lots of wall squatting.. we did do other exercises but cant really remember all of them lol.

Inspiring quotes of today, i am going to upload two different pictures.
    


Random Dos and Donts of the Day:
1. DONT stub your toe on a wall, it hurts :(
2. DO open a yougurt away from you, because if you open it towards you, it will spit at you like mine did.
3. DO make sure you have a lot of courage and saying no when you have to go the chippy for your mum and dad and your not having any.

Its Been Two Days OOPS!

Its been two days since last blog, oopsie! been really busy though with work, bootcamp, out and about etc. Nothing much has really happened to be honest, work has been busy, dont know if its just me or are the weeks in january going slower and slower.. Had another PT session yesterday, was a bloody killer but amazing :) combo of bike for warmup, boxing, kettlebells, burpees, incline pressups :) slightly sore again today.. Looking forward to the 24 of feb as A. i go and see The Wanted and B. i have a day off hehe :)

Going to put up two inspiring quotes on my blog today as i aint done my blog in two days, so first one is:

``Never change yourself for anyone, if they say you need to change. They're the ones who need to change. Not you.`` << from a random person i follow on twitter.

``Life is like a camera. Focus on whats important, capture the good times, and develop from the negatives``.

Random Dos and Donts From The Last Couple Of Days:
1. DONT have tuna on the day that you have a PT session as A. you get fishy burps and B. you feel sick during workout lol
2. DO wait a little bit before you drink a recently boiled hot cuppa tea, you burn your tongue.
3. DONT forget to put cold water in your bath after you have put hot water in, as when you get into a bath which just has hot water in, it bloody hurts

Is It Friday Yet??

Is It Friday Yet????? i dont know if it is just me or does the weeks in this year go really slow!!! Also the weekends just fly by, does anyone think that we should work saturday and sunday but have monday to friday off :) .. in a very questionable mood today. Also why is it soo hard to book a doctors appointment, they dont have any appointments until next week, i will be feeling better by then no doubt.. sorry about all the questions guys, if anyone can answer them, it would be fab :)

Inspiring quote of the day is: .......

`` You just have to go through all the bad in your life, to get to the good! That's why everything happens for a reason, you just don't know it! ``

Random Dos and Donts of the Day:
1. DONT carry a tower of 25 cups and open a door at the same time, you will drop them all.
2. DONT close the car door on your ankle, it will hurt
3. DO put cream on your excema before you make it bleed and look like someone has been murdered.

Human Punch Bags

Today i do not know what is up with my body.. From the moment i woke up, my chest has been soo sore, my throat has been on fire, my joints are aching, my bones feel like they are going to break, my head has been banging... sorry to be soo negative but just felt like utter crap..

 Then to make matters worst, in work i got used as a punch bag by one of the kids. I think i may have sprained my wrist as it is slightly swollen and sore to touch... but apart from that, i have had a fab day lol

Inspiring quote is from status shuffle on facebook, it is:

WE have to except the things we can not change, and have the courage to change the things we can. Have the Wisdom to know the difference.

Random Dos and Donts of the day:
1. DONT get kicked by a kid with timberland boots as it will hurt and will sprain your wrist/hand.
2. DONT watch programmes that has people throwing up whilst eating, u nearly throw up too.

Deal Or No Deal

Yo Peeps, in a hyper mood today for some reason :S ... nothing much has happened to me today really, quite a quiet day tbh. Been in a reflective mood aswell and i have come to some conclusions over certain things.. Firstly i know i am only young but i have made a bucket list (if you dont know what one of them is, its a list of all different things you want to do before you die), i hope i tick all of them all off. Secondly, i want to do on Deal or No Deal because it seems like such a fun show and i want to win some money hehe.. cant find the appilcation form though :(

My inspiring quote today comes from watching Big Brother from sunday (i am about 2 days behind lol), Natalie Cassidy had a tee shirt on which said:

`Dreams Never End` <<< This is sooo true, if you want to achieve your dreams, then keep working towards them and achieve them so they do not end.

Random Dos and Donts:
1. DONT play football with 10 3 year old children at once, they dont half kick the ball hard at your legs :(
2. DO try whole grain pasta, it tastes nice
3. DONT touch sardines with your fingers, the smell stays on your fingers for days (the kids in work at sardines for tea, i can still smell it on your fingers the next day)

x

Kissing Frogs

I havnt done my blog for 2 whole days, OOPPS! sorry guys, i have been super busy and also i had a hangover on sunday lol. So what have i done these last two days?? Saturday i had my PT session which was a bloody killer, still aching today from it. Struggled with a few exercises though because of my knees, disappointed with my self that i had to stop half way through and change excerise. DAMN KNEES!

Saturday night i went out drinking with a friend, has a fab time but i do not know what got into me. while i was out, i got into 4 lads.. i do not know why, i jsut couldnt control myself.. i aint usually that sort of girl but lately i cant go out anywhere without kissing a few frogs.. why cant i just settle down with any of them?? is there something up with me?? these are the thoughts that go through my mind.

Sunday i was badly hungover even though i hardly drunk much, so i had a lazy day and also i was DOMS so it hurt to type lol.

My inspiring quote i found on status shuffle on facebook, it is:

``I will live my life as i am..only living up to my own expectations and following only my dreams. I will live as me, and  not let  others change me!`` I have had people try to change me and i have let them, but i have learnt my lesson.

Random Dos and Donts of the Day:
1. DO try vodka,lime and soda if you like vodka :) its lovely
2. DONT get sand in your eyes, it hurts
3. DONT cut yourself when you are shaving your legs, it bloody hurts and stings.

13 is a unlucky number... for me anyways !

Well today if you dont already know is Friday the 13th! To me, i hate this day as for the past 3 years, something has already happened to me, it must be a curse i have! It first started when i was sixteen, on friday 13th i sprained my ankle. When i was 17, a close friend died :( , when i was 18 i cut my hand on glass and today, i was on my driving lesson and nearly ran over a cat. I know you may laugh but it only looked like a little kitten that had escaped from somewhere :(

I was also reading my friends blog today and she was talking about recurring dreams which has inspired me to write about a few of mine.. One i keep having every few weeks which can last up to about 10 nights is where i am in a room with all my friends and family and one by one they disappear and i go to run after them but i physically cant move.. every time i wake up i am crying as i want to go with them but i cant :(

Random Dos and Donts of the Day:
1. DONT shave your legs really fast if you have a new blade in your razor as you will cut yourself and bleed like someone has been murdered.
2. DONT have a gulp of your drink whilst your laughing as you will spill it.

Pic Time..

I am soo tired, my eyes are trying to keep open to watch the soaps so i am going to post some pictures up on how my day has been today as my brain cant function enough to write a big essay:

Inbetween the singing, i havnt stopped yawning, i know i aint a cat but this pic is quite funny.

My left knee is soo sore today still, it needs to click or do something but it isnt :(

Been in a singing mood today, lots of singing with the children.

Not a inspiring quote today but a funny one, was watching Emmerdale and Loral and Nicola were talking about children and Chaz over heard them and said

`aww kids, they are lovely until they start peeing up your leg and chewing the wood work` made me lol

Random Dos and Donts Of The Day:

1. DO always read if a door says push or pull on it as you may look like a fool if you stand there doing the opposite.

2. DONT bang your head on the car door when you are getting into the car, it hurts :(

Can only think of two today sorry x

And Relax......

OMG! What a totes busy day, my bum finally hit the couch at 20 past eight and i have been up since quarter to seven.. I am completely knackered but had quite a good day. My voice is completely back now which is good :) I had a meeting after work, it was about deafnesses in people/children. I was quite shocked about some of the stats. Here is one statastic that shocked me the most:

Babies' hearing is tested as part of routine screening. About 840 babies are born with significant deafness each year in the UK. About one in 1,000 children is deaf at three years old and about 20,000 children aged up to 15 are moderately to profoundly deaf. (Profoundly means completely)

This is from the website http://www.bbc.co.uk/health/physical_health/conditions/deafness1.shtml

Also a inspirational quote which is got tagged in on facebook was:

`Think a 20 Minute Workout Wont Do Anything? Well Its Sure Hell Better Then A 0 Minute One!! :)

Random Dos and Donts:
1. DONT yawn without putting your hand over your mouth when kids are about, they put your fingers in your mouth.
2. DONT get dressed in a car if you can help it, its not very easy to do.
3. DO make sure no one sees you in the car whilst getting undressed.

Speak 4 Lines :)

Hola Everyone, feel a little bit better then i did yesterday. I am slowly getting my voice back, still a little croaky but better then it was yesterday :) Today has been quite a positive day, everything has fitted in my day perfectly for some strange reason. This hardly ever happens to me so HOORAY :)

I am not slacking today either and found this quote whilst browsing through twitter on my lunch..

Speak 4 Lines to YOURSELF every morning: 1. I am the best. 2. I can do it. . 3. I am a winner. 4. Today is my day!!!

Everyone should repeat this :) i am going to try every day :) give yourself a boost to get you kickstarting in a morning..

Random Dos and Donts for the Day:
1. DONT forget to blow hot soup before you start eating it as it will burn your mouth otherwise.
2. DO try and tell your family and friends you love them as you dont know when they will suddenly go away.
3. DONT get overexcited about the soaps, ITS ONLY THE SOAPS JADE, THEY ARE ONLY ACTING, IT IS NOT REAL LIFE :)

x

.... :(

What a crap and busy day!! Damn! damn goes my new year resoulation which was to have a more positive aspect on life, but i feel like crap. I have lost my voice, it is just a whisper. Had a headache for the last 2 days and feel like i have got no energy what so ever. Bootcamp made me feel a little bit better tonight even though i could hardly breathe because of my throat.

I am slacking a little bit with my inspiring qoutes but i will write one which i have in my room stuck on my mirror, it says:

Love Laugh Live..

when i first seen this, i fell in love with the saying, to me it means Love Life, just live it and have a laugh as it may end suddenly so just love every minutes as best you can.

Random Dos and Donts of the Day:
1. DO try your best not to talk to kids when you have lost your voice as they just laugh in your face lol.
2. DO make sure you have a towel in the bathroom with you when you get out the shower.
3. DONT bang your knee against a wall IT HURTS lol

x

Star Signs Are True..

Nearly didnt write todays blog as i am aching from head to toe, as i did my first PT session yesterday which was amazing. Havnt had doms like this in a while but it will be all worth it in the end. Been planning some meals aswell as i am changing my nutrition aswell, no point doing all this excerise when you are just going to eat crap.

Havnt read any inspiring quotes today, but i did read my star sign today which totes relates to me and what i have ben thinking the last few weeks. , i read it in OK Extra mag which comes free with a paper, it says:

Leo - Its time to settle down and start work on your career plans for this year. A change of image, a diet or a new health kick will further boost your get-up-and-go on Friday.

Random Dos and Donts of the Day:
1. DO make sure you have a drink on your bedside table if you have a bad cough and you dont feel well because you will wake up coughing and not being able to breath and a drink does help.
2. DONT tell your nan that you are changing your eating habits to more healthier things from monday as she will try and give you a load of chocolate and sweets and say its your last treat (no thanks nan)
3. DO make sure you press save before closing your blog as you will lose the blog you have just written and have to rewrite it, like i have just had to do.

x

Bootcamp Anyone??

First PT session with an amazing and inspiring women called Lizzie who is a qualifed PT and also runs the bootcamp i attend three times a week. Was hard work but a good killer workout, going to be very sore and stiff tomorrow i think. I did however, get a shock.. good job i was sititng down. I got weighed,measured etc and i got told that my metabolic age is 33!!!!!!!!!!!!! :O this is bad in my eyes as A. i am only 19 and B. my insides must be messed up, (for any one who doesnt know what metabolic age is, its how old your insides are).

I havnt read any inspiring sayings/sentences today but what i would say is.. anyone who lives around my area and is looking to lose weight/tone up, i would recommend coming to bootcamp. It is on three times a week and each session lasts 45 minutes, in this 45 minutes you do lots of different excerises which helps tone up different parts of your body. Men and Women both attend and the only thing is you have to be over 18 :) if anyone is interested, let me know via twitter @jadey_smith or via my blog.

Random Dos and Donts of the Day:
1. DO make sure you look at yourself in the mirror before you leave the house as you may nearly go outside with odd shoes on.
2. DO invest in a PT if you have the money as it is hardwork but worth it
3. DONT get shampoo in your eyes as it hurts :(

x

FISH YUCK!

Off work again today, i was a little bit naughty and went to pizza hut with a friend.. After being so good all week, my friend talked me into to it. Regreted it at bootcamp later on, felt soo sick. Worked really hard though to try and burn it off and i also have PT session tomorrow ARRRGGHH!!! slightly excited but slighty nervous at the same time..

Read a quote today which someone i go to bootcamp with called Karen put on twitter. the quote was:

`If you listen to your fears, you will die never knowing what a great person you might have been`. I am getting slighty addicted to all these random inspiring quotes lol.

Random Dos and Dont`s of the day:
1. DO make sure you put your feet on the stairs properly otherwise you will trip on the stairs and nearly bang your face (like my mum) not a laughing matter.
2. DONT sit by someone on the bus who has fish in their bag as it bloody sticks (esp when you dont like the smell of fish)
3. DONT forget your mat for bootcamp as you have to deal with grazed arms and knees which are really sore.

Dream Of Winning

Had a bit of a crappy day today.. I put it down to having a crappy night sleep, my brain just wouldnt switch off for some reason.. So sleep deprived equals crappy and moody day.. But that changed a little bit when i was on the bus on way to work.. I was flicking through the Metro (free paper that you get on trains and buses), and on the front it said:

`Dont Dream Of Winning, Train For It``!
This made me smile, i am getting lucky this month. The last three days i have been seeing random inspirational sayings.. Then when i turned the page over, i read:

`Make The Next 12 Months The Year Of You. Every Athlete Everybody. Its Time To Bring Your Best Then better It. Whatever You Do!`
And this got me thinking again, i am going to make this year about me :)

Random Dos and Donts Of The Day:
1. DONT Put Off Till Tomorrow What You Can Do Today
2. DONT shut your work locker door on your finger as it hurts :(
3. Do make sure you try and have the right change most of the time when you get the bus as you get evil looks and moaned at my bus drivers

x

Smile & Be Happy

Hola..

Day off today, tried to keep as busy as possible. Went to visit my nan and I had a walk around the shop to get her a paper. Someone had a little candle holder in their window which has a saying on it. The saying was:

`Do What Makes You Happy, Be With The People That Make You Smile`.

This got me thinking again, 2011 i met a lot of fab people and this is just a little shoutout to all people, ones i have recently met and ones i have known for years.. You are all fab and you all make me smile :)

Random Dos and Dont`s Of The Day:
1. DONT pick a hot recently boiled kettle with your left hand when you normally pick it up with your right hand as you will drop it and burn yourself (i know have a scar on hand)
2. DO invest in ear muffs in this windy weather as they keep your ears nice and warm
3. DO make sure you open doors properly before walking through them as you will walk into it and hurt yourself (i didnt open door properly and hit my hip on side of door, i know have a bruise)

x

Been Thinking....

Hi Everyone, first day back at work today after the christmas break.. Suprisingly it was ok but the wind today. OMG! it was like one step forward and 3 steps back. A normal stroll to the shop takes 10 minutes, 20 minutes it took me today because of the wind.

Was thinking about a saying i seen today on a random card, the saying was `Believe the impossible`, this got me thinking whilst eating my grapes.. That it is a really inspirational saying, believe in something you dont think you can achieve and if you keep beliving and thinking you can achieve, you will! i think this is going to be my inspiration saying from now on..

Random dos and dont from today:
1. DONT step in a puddle with pumps on from primark (they cant deal with water)
2. DONT go on a walk to the shop just for a bottle of water in gale force winds (just do without as you get blown away)
3. DO start looking out for random sayings as they may inspire you

x

Err..Hello

Well here i am writing my first ever blog.. I am sitting here watching the soaps thinking about starting work tomorrow after the christmas break.. This leads me to my first note to self which is to have a change of job sometime this year.. This christmas break has got me doing a lot of thinking..

Reasons i have doing this blog:
1.because i want to
2.write down all my thoughts
3.linked to number 2, it will get things off my chest
4.hopefully inspire people, this may sound silly but one of my things on my bucket list (talk about that in a later blog most properly) is to inspire someone

So anyways thats my first ever blog, may sound silly but i am quite proud of it hehe x